Fall 2010

This Fall semester has been okay, I guess. The best part has been the house and getting a beautiful new puppy, Newman. He's so cute and smart. The unexpected part has been Aaron leaving for a month, but I feel like it's something we needed. We've gotten closer, and appreciated each other more this past month. And I've had the opportunity to reflect and grow by myself, as well.

The more I get to know someone, the more I don't like them. I've discovered a lot about this person I don't really like. I really need to start going with my gut feeling with people, because I'm usually right. I originally thought this person was fake, manipulative, and superficial. And I was right. But this person really pulled the wool over my eyes, and made me think something else (due to the manipulation)and now I'm starting to see who they really are. Ugh.

Anyway, this coming week is Fall Break, and I can't be happier.

Summer Changes

I'm using this as an outlet for my excitement (since I'm pretty sure only one person reads this thing)

1) I'M ENGAGED!

2) I'M GETTING A FUCKING HOUSE!

I've never been so excited. I've wanted my own home for as long as I can remember. I can't believe how quickly this is happening, but it's happening. I plan on decorating, gardening, cooking...so many things. I'm just excited for the simple things: a dishwasher and a washer/dryer. I've never own a dishwasher, and I haven't had my own washer/dryer since I was living at home in Hustonville. I cannot describe how I feel, just that it's amazing. I'm actually sort of in shock. I'm sure it'll hit me once I move in.

I already bought a wreath for the front door (see right). I can't wait to hang it up. Oh! And I can't wait to see little Bianca when she goes outside for the first time since she was a little baby. More later.

Love,

Liz

Hints of Spring

This past weekend was beautiful, and it revived my spirit. Temperatures got into the 60s which is like a heat-wave compared to last week's freezing, snowy weather. Aaron took me to Fort Boonesborough to swing and walk around. I loved it! I also opened all the windows in my tiny apartment to let the fresh air in while I cleaned. I love having the windows open on a sunny day and feel the cool air!

On another note...I am terrified of taking the GRE and of the Masters program. I found out I'm going to have to do more than I expected, which is not a bad thing, just scary. The PRAXIS scared me when it comes to on-demand writing for tests, so I'm not looking forward to the analytical section of the GRE. I just need to get my ass in gear and start studying vocabulary. I'm also nervous about presenting for KPA, but at the same time I know it will be okay since my friends will probably be the only ones to attend my reading. :)

I've also expanded my work load a bit to make more $:

1) I'm now trained (certified?) to administer the PRAXIS, so I'll be doing that one Saturday out of the month.

2) I was offered a part-time job as a researcher by one of the Professors in my Department. I'm actually really excited about this, and I think I will enjoy it.

I really wish I could have a paid Spring Break where I didn't have to come into the office. But all staff have to come to campus all week...ugh. Oh well, I've been so spoiled with this job, so I shouldn't complain!

I can't wait until May so that we can move again to a much better place now that we can afford it. We may be moving in to a duplex that one of Aaron's friends owns. We may even get a puppy if we move to a bigger place! We thought about another cat, but Bianca is too much like a dog, so we think maybe she'll get along with a dog better. :)

I'm not sure I like growing up

My most beloved professor edited my paper in her Early American Lit class and submitted a proposal for me to the KPA (Kentucky Philological Association) conference being held at Eastern this March.

And...

It was accepted!

I'm so nervous. I've never presented at a conference, let alone presented my own written work.

And...

I'm getting to know my mother's mother. My mom was adopted, and her true mother found out about her after she died, during my sophomore year of high school. I met her during that time, but it was very brief, and of course, my dad and grandmother forbade me to ever talk to her again. I've started writing her, and maybe one day I will be able to meet her in person again. She lives in California, so it would be a fun trip! :) She seems like a very kind-hearted person, and she's a Buddhist, which I think is awesome. I love having people in my life with unique beliefs.

American Feminisms tonight! :)

I want to scream. I HATE THE INTERNET!!!!! Or more specifically, sites that cause drama: Facebook, Myspace, Tumblr, Formspring, etc.

Except this time I guess I created all the drama.

See, I thought I could write anonymously on this person's Formspring, because that's what it's for.

I thought I could vent some of my frustrations.

But it all came back to bite me in the ass.

Apparently this person didn't expect anyone to write something bad on their Formspring, because they are perfect in every way and so lovely. And I guess they found out who wrote on it. I suppose this person has computer hacking skills or some shit: or just a husband in MI.

However, this person has not confronted me about it. But I have a feeling that some day, they will. And then I will vent my frustrations to their face. That is, if they're still in KY.

I'm a horrible, immature person.

I hate being passive aggressive. What's wrong with me?

But at the same time, I notice all the things this person does, and I feel like I'm the only person in the world that isn't fooled. And if I say anything, I will be the bitch, and everyone will hate me because I'M NOT FAKE.

I've been manipulated my whole life, and now I can finally point out the manipulator without getting trampled on.

But just like always, I'm the one who "get's in trouble."

God this is high school bullshit. I'm sick of it. Can I please move far away?

Winter Break Top Five

1) Moving. I can't wait to move into a new, clean, non-shitty apt where people aren't stomping above me, puking off the railings outside, thumping music, and dogs are barking every time you fart.

2) Reading/Relaxing. I'm finally finishing the Chronicles of Narnia this break, because the library (kiddie section) ordered in new books.

3) Yoga/Weights/Cardio/Eating Right. I need it. I don't like being a chubster.

4) Christmas! I'm excited for gifts and being with the ones I love.

5) Getting my hair cut. I haven't had a hair cut since September and color since June. I think I'm way past due for one.

Moving

Right now I'm going to count how many times I've moved in the past two years:

1) Home to Dorm

2) Home to Fair Family Basement

3) Fair Family Basement to Dorm

4) Dorm to Apt.

5) Apt. to Fair Family Basement

6) Fair Family Basement to RC Apt.

7) RC Apt. to Present

And now for the eighth time in two years, I'm moving again! But now I'm moving to a (hopefully) better apartment within the same complex. It's a one bedroom suite, with (supposedly) better cable and $50 cheaper. I'm actually excited to have an apartment without water running down the bathroom walls, people stomping like elephants above me, and dogs barking every time I open my door (it's a pet-free building). The only thing I dread is the move itself and having to re-arrange and re-organize everything.

Oh how I wish for my own home, where I might actually decorate for Christmas. And have my own garden.